I guess I should clear up that last journal entry, huh?

Basically I was feeling on a real low that day, one of my white noise days where I feel nothing is certain and I doubt my entire viewpoint and place in the world. The main trigger of these sorts of extreme uncertainty days is my Asperger's, which among other things hinders my understanding of other people's reactions. I often can't tell whether people are being serious, or joking, or trying to be nice, or even annoyed with me when they say something. And the damnning thing is; because I know I have a track record for completely missing the message behind the words, even when I correctly interpret the meaning I doubt my own interpretation. So hence the days where I completely lose the thread of what people think of me (unfortunately I'm very self-analytical, so this means a lot to me) and just sort of sit in a panicked fuzz, a vortex of possible scenarios. The thing that seemed the most important to me at that time was that people thought I was a nice person, because it seems to me that my comments and stuff have gone down since my deviations have got a tad more agressive.

But the responses I got really really helped, and I feel much much better now, so a huge thankyou to those who commented.


In other news; I am at "work" now, working at a place called the TüLab, which basically is a crazy cool place for kids to make crazy stuff with wood, fiberglass, cloth, metal, wire, you name it. All of my costumes were pretty much made there, when I was still a member. I'm now on the other side of the action, and help kids out with stuff, take calls, wash dishes, and work on my own Halloween costume for this year (hopefully this one will get pictures uploaded, so you'll get to see some of my costume work at last).

I'm also working on a series of clips for the TüLab, filming and stuff. At the moment I'm wrestling with Final Cut Pro, which keeps giving me the "Frames Dropped" message when I try to capture. ARGGH. I've researched everywhere, fiddled with settings. and read through the manual, and the only thing I can assume is wrong is the hard-drive on this Mac that I'm working at, at the TüLab. I'm going to take the camera home and stick it into my Mac and see how it goes. Need to ask permission from the Parental Unit first though... Yep, no computer for me. I'm doing too few chores, apparently (dishes every other day, cleaning the toilet twice, hoovering, laundry, mopping the floors, and taking out the rubbish as a weekly stable is apparently not enough). So this means no digital art for a while, and also no real media art, as I'm naturally not allowed to use mum's computer to scan stuff either.

So yes...

On a final note:
ASS BURGERS ASS BURGERS
DONKEYS ON THE GRILL